Author Topic: I don't know.  (Read 1759 times)

Offline Loki

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I don't know.
« on: November 01, 2023, 02:16:18 PM »
I don't know what to do.

This phase, the phase that forces me to be conscious,
when a part of me digs a deeper hole every time I take a leaping step forward,
I am struggling to find my balance,
between what I am and what I should be.

This phase, where I have to face demons that I created,
the ones who once protected me from my bullies,
is now identifying the bully within me.
I hate to ridicule my own being, but that's all I have learned to do.

This phase, where nothing feels real,
emotions, people, situations, all fade into this clump of memories,
That I conveniently ignore whenever I look for reasons to be happy.

This nothingness, it is ripping me apart,
I don't know what to do.